As I sit in audience listening to experts sharing problems of the world, I am tempted to help - to do something to help the world. I wonder if it's my conditioning or a genuine intention to help the world.
But then - if the arrow of awareness is also at the same time pointed inwards, I realize that there is other side too. The one inside me. While I am listening and understanding the issues of the world - the global warming, the educational and farming crisis , the food poison, the corporate and government conspiracy, I am also parallely feeling lot of things. I am wanting to be speaking at the podium, I want people to listen to me and value my point of view.
I am internally criticizing and refuting the stands of all the experts , so that my stand takes an upper hand. I find people and explain them how stupid that guy on the podium is and how smart I am. I am constantly wanting to be highlighted, to be appreciated. I want to be accepted by all and ignored by none.
I also feel that the problem is not really important, for there have been problems ever since we existed. What matters then ? Do we really need to engage in problem solving or find a way to personal salvation through these issues ?
I am internally criticizing and refuting the stands of all the experts , so that my stand takes an upper hand. I find people and explain them how stupid that guy on the podium is and how smart I am. I am constantly wanting to be highlighted, to be appreciated. I want to be accepted by all and ignored by none.
I also feel that the problem is not really important, for there have been problems ever since we existed. What matters then ? Do we really need to engage in problem solving or find a way to personal salvation through these issues ?
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