I just returned few days back from Italy, my first ever trip abroad. I feel I am a reduced man now.
Italy was a culture shock, I could clearly see how limited my perceptions were and how strong my Indian conditioning is. It shook me from bottom. I am extremely disturbed, more lost than ever, more confused than ever.
The man (or woman) in Italy are so different, everything is so different yet so similar. I go back to my confusions of what is right, what is wrong ? What is moral , what is immoral ? All these questions haunt me deep inside, more than ever before.
I am a reduced man today because now I don't have courage to stand for anything that I think is right or correct. I know I can be wrong. I know there is nothing wrong in being wrong. My life is more insecure now because all my rigid perceptions of life are being hammered. I am lost more than ever because now I am loosing confidence in my beliefs and my thinking.
Somewhere I know its a good process but at this moment extremely painful. I feel like a stupid, like a looser, like a person who knows nothing.
I don't know how to live life, how to love and it hurts deeply.
