Can I believe what's happenings ? I am prolly getting married. To add more to it , I am getting arranged married. And it all seems fine.
I think this is a huge shift in my life. I had never imagined to get married and arranged marriage was primitive and total no for me ! But here I am ...doing it ! Why ? How ? Can't explain. But to keep it simple, I think that's what universe finds best for me. I am happy with the way things are flowing.
I think the driver of this decision , or any decision in my life is now my spiritual quest. My search for myself and for truth. Marriage came into picture out of it. I never wanted to get married but I realized that a feminine energy is must. Journey and life is incomplete without it. I practiced Celibacy for a year just to see what it means living without a woman. It was lovely, I did not feel alone. I was infact happy. But something was incomplete. So, i decided that a woman will make things complete in my world, at madmans farm and in my life. It was driven by this strong feeling, supported ofcourse by my sexual instincts. Surprisingly, sexual instincts were a very tiny part of it. I thought it's the driving force for any man-woman relationship. But I am happy that universe has allowed me to grow and look at deeper sides of this dual nature of existence.
Why Arrange ? First, I found it really funny to go out and find a gal, fall in love and then convince her for marriage. I've done it, things really din worked out till end. Especially now, when I am living in Jungle, finding a lover is quite difficult.
But more important than that, much more important is this growing faith in me. My faith has deepened immensely in universe and natural flow of life. My faith has grown infinataley in womanhood. There is not a single woman in my life who I can hate or even dislike. To me womanhood itself is celebration. It really doesn't matter who I marry. Every woman is part of womanhood and to me that's all matters. Differences and issues will be there ...they are only natural.
I am excited. I am happy for this new phase in my life. I am enjoying it all. My gratitude for universe and existence is only deepening. I feel blessed and inexpressibly fortunate.
I think this is a huge shift in my life. I had never imagined to get married and arranged marriage was primitive and total no for me ! But here I am ...doing it ! Why ? How ? Can't explain. But to keep it simple, I think that's what universe finds best for me. I am happy with the way things are flowing.
I think the driver of this decision , or any decision in my life is now my spiritual quest. My search for myself and for truth. Marriage came into picture out of it. I never wanted to get married but I realized that a feminine energy is must. Journey and life is incomplete without it. I practiced Celibacy for a year just to see what it means living without a woman. It was lovely, I did not feel alone. I was infact happy. But something was incomplete. So, i decided that a woman will make things complete in my world, at madmans farm and in my life. It was driven by this strong feeling, supported ofcourse by my sexual instincts. Surprisingly, sexual instincts were a very tiny part of it. I thought it's the driving force for any man-woman relationship. But I am happy that universe has allowed me to grow and look at deeper sides of this dual nature of existence.
Why Arrange ? First, I found it really funny to go out and find a gal, fall in love and then convince her for marriage. I've done it, things really din worked out till end. Especially now, when I am living in Jungle, finding a lover is quite difficult.
But more important than that, much more important is this growing faith in me. My faith has deepened immensely in universe and natural flow of life. My faith has grown infinataley in womanhood. There is not a single woman in my life who I can hate or even dislike. To me womanhood itself is celebration. It really doesn't matter who I marry. Every woman is part of womanhood and to me that's all matters. Differences and issues will be there ...they are only natural.
I am excited. I am happy for this new phase in my life. I am enjoying it all. My gratitude for universe and existence is only deepening. I feel blessed and inexpressibly fortunate.
