It is a nice realization to say the least that being good is really bad.
This ain't a fancy statement to crowd up my blog. As if I care.
This is just a truth. Let me explain little bit.
When I am good, its never absolute - all it means that I am majorly good and minorly bad. Say for e.g. 70% of me and my acts are good and 30% bad.
Similarly for someone who is bad, all it means is he/she is 70% bad but still 30% good.
No absolute good or bad exists. ( You may test this statement anywhere, anytime and for anyone. The only exception could be some saint or mystic - may be.)
Being majorly good is bad because its gives you immense power to be bad without being guilty.
If I am usually benevolent and love everyone, I can hurt someone - without feeling guilty- once in a while.
If I am usually calm, I can get angry and still not feel that I did something wrong.
It happened to me, My image in public and hence my image for myself is that I am a good person. One who is a good friend and a good son, good brother etc...
This gave me power to behave really bad to one of my very close friend. I almost hurt her, almost abused her and almost insulted her to lowest level possible.
On the top of it, I did not feel guilty or that I was wrong - coz I am majorly good.
Even she did not feel much offended coz I am majorly good.
Even my friends did not disapprove of my acts - coz I am majorly good.
Being good, give you power to be bad.
Anyone who is good would love to be bad and this bad is worse coz there is no guilt and no realization that something wrong has been done.
Being bad on the other hand, inspires bad people to do something good.
Hence you'd find that cruel people will occasionally, randomly do something good and feel happy.
I feel that being good is bad as it gives you power to hurt someone else or belittle them without being guilty.
If one wants to be good in real sense, he needs to give up the sense of goodness within himself and in others. Let just things be. Let me try if I can do this.
