I have everything right now...i don't need to worry about finances. I have a happy family. I have a decent reputation in society. I have a future plan. I have self-esteem. I am doing things that are good for me, for my society and nature at large. I have every reason to feel good, content, happy and at peace.
I don''t !
If I had a reason or problem, I won't be troubled for I will be busy sorting it out with the hope of arriving at peace once I sort it out. The bigger frustration right now is that I don't really have a problem, everything is good enough ! and yet - my inner peace is not to be found. Infact...I remember my good ol days when I was more at peace...those days...i was rather more confused and full of issues.
I have started living a farm life...which in current times seens as more or less the most responsible life to live. I am growing my own food, growing trees, living sustainably. I am close to my family and except from few minor , ignorable issues -we are very happy. My wife and I go along well.
I have my entire life in front of me...and I feel in position that I have power to create whatever life I wish to create. I know, I can be , I can do whatever I want to in future....It's a rare oppurtunity for anyone - I guess....to be in position that I am in. Be in control of my own destiny...
and Yet - I don't know what should I do...where should I take my destiny...
May be..I should focus more on my spiritual growth...may be I should really make a dent in social domain...may be I should become a famous farmer....perhaps I can open up a cafe or a wellness centre...may be I can start a revolution....and amongst these may be's...i just end up eating, sleeping and doing some of my regular works...
Hmmm....is this a transition period...is this the silence before the storm ? Is something brewing in me....Is there something that existence is preparing for me ? Or has existence decided that I am of no use ...Time...shall unfold....
I don''t !
If I had a reason or problem, I won't be troubled for I will be busy sorting it out with the hope of arriving at peace once I sort it out. The bigger frustration right now is that I don't really have a problem, everything is good enough ! and yet - my inner peace is not to be found. Infact...I remember my good ol days when I was more at peace...those days...i was rather more confused and full of issues.
I have started living a farm life...which in current times seens as more or less the most responsible life to live. I am growing my own food, growing trees, living sustainably. I am close to my family and except from few minor , ignorable issues -we are very happy. My wife and I go along well.
I have my entire life in front of me...and I feel in position that I have power to create whatever life I wish to create. I know, I can be , I can do whatever I want to in future....It's a rare oppurtunity for anyone - I guess....to be in position that I am in. Be in control of my own destiny...
and Yet - I don't know what should I do...where should I take my destiny...
May be..I should focus more on my spiritual growth...may be I should really make a dent in social domain...may be I should become a famous farmer....perhaps I can open up a cafe or a wellness centre...may be I can start a revolution....and amongst these may be's...i just end up eating, sleeping and doing some of my regular works...
Hmmm....is this a transition period...is this the silence before the storm ? Is something brewing in me....Is there something that existence is preparing for me ? Or has existence decided that I am of no use ...Time...shall unfold....
