Friday, May 21, 2010

The epitome of a confused mind


What do I do ? What job to choose ? Where to live ?
How to Live ?
Indeed, my mind has become the most confused mind. There are millions of thoughts and billions of conflicts which are continuously taking my present away in hope of a future that I want.

The basic question is - what is my purpose in this universe ?
Certainly it is not to make those Integrated Circuits !
Nor it is to sell products through creative advertising and marketing !
I don't know my ideal job.

If there doesn't exist one ideal job then how is one supposed to earn money and live life ? Shall I take up any job and try to be happy ? How can one try to be happy ? One can at most pretend.

My parents are worried and my impression in their eyes is falling down. They are loosing faith me. So am I !

Why can't I just do a job that pays well ? Why can't I just stay in any city ?
Is it wrong not to like Mumbai's life style or to like the culture abroad ?

I don't have money, I am in considerable debts. I am not earning money.
My love life is shacky ! My family is moving distant with each passing year.

What am I doing ? Just sitting confused.