I just returned few days back from Italy, my first ever trip abroad. I feel I am a reduced man now.
Italy was a culture shock, I could clearly see how limited my perceptions were and how strong my Indian conditioning is. It shook me from bottom. I am extremely disturbed, more lost than ever, more confused than ever.
The man (or woman) in Italy are so different, everything is so different yet so similar. I go back to my confusions of what is right, what is wrong ? What is moral , what is immoral ? All these questions haunt me deep inside, more than ever before.
I am a reduced man today because now I don't have courage to stand for anything that I think is right or correct. I know I can be wrong. I know there is nothing wrong in being wrong. My life is more insecure now because all my rigid perceptions of life are being hammered. I am lost more than ever because now I am loosing confidence in my beliefs and my thinking.
Somewhere I know its a good process but at this moment extremely painful. I feel like a stupid, like a looser, like a person who knows nothing.
I don't know how to live life, how to love and it hurts deeply.
1 comment:
Dear Mr Reduced man !
I think you have been consistently confused through your blog entries.
Even if its going to make you hopelessly confused and insecure you must questions set beliefs .
Questioning begins the process of learning and life is all about learning and loving will happen when you learn to love another person more than you love yourself.
So keep searching for more than what meets the eye cause a reflection can be got seen in water a mirroring person or just looking within yourself.
Peace shall not play elusive stranger if you get in touch with the real person you are devoid of facades and masks just the naked you.
After thought i loved the title reduced man !
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