It's fun to be voilent & the reasons of war

I may talk about non-violence or I may sing praises of Mahatma Gandhi. I might even consider myself a pro-peace person and react against violence in the world today.
But the fact remains which I can not deny, I am a violent man. I enjoy being violent.

I've been avoiding fights for long not because I am a calm and composed soul that medidates but partly because of fear and partly because I wanted to avoid those high disturbed moment that fights and violence bring. But then a deeper look tells me , its fun too.

Recently, I had a fight. I was drunk and I am really not sure if I'd have reacted the same way if I wasn't. I saw a guy beating a girl and I thrashed that guy. I became a hero overnight. Everybody who saw told me you are a braveheart. You stood by the right. You are a true hero.

I am enjoying the limelight - See the first benefit of being violent - You get noticed. Possitively or negatively, but violence gets you noticed. No one talks about the peaceful guy in the class, no one talked about me when I was peaceful. Is it because I stood for violence for right reasons ?

I think, its violence itself. Add to it that it is for a so called "good" reason, you get all the attention you always wanted.

My boring Life suddenly gained excitement. We all have so much to talk about. I've myself recited that story tens of times to my friend and each time is equal fun.

That's the second benefit of being violent - Your life becomes exciting.

Then, because I didn't get beaten up. I was the one who thrashed the other chap, it boosts my ego. My shoulders have broaden up few inches in few minutes. The third benefit of being violent - it fulfills your ego.

Lastly, it relieves you of tension and frustration. Some other tensions were relieved through this incidence. So yet another benefit - It's stress reliever.

The four reasons above, make violence really fun especially if you have the upper hand. I feel strange to discover this reality of my self. But that's what I am.

Is it right ? Is it wrong ? I'd just say - I don't know.

But it sure tells me, why do we have so many wars on this planet. War benefits masses as fights/quarrels benefits individuals. We support violence in a way that we might not realize. All said and done, I agree that its fun to be violent but its even more funny to be really calm sitting by the beach watching a beautiful sunset on a winter evening.