So, I've started living in Budhanwada (or Dudhiya, Geedhan, Utka) , a small village near my maternal town Deori. My uncle does farming in 25 acres here and I've taken around 2 acres of it to just experiment. I've already planted lot of trees in this 2 acres as it is monsoon season, supposedly good for plantation.
I've taken some money from my dad to get started. I needed fencing (as the area is heavily populated with goats, wild boars) and some other things to get started. (like books ! ! ).
Now I am not a farmer, I am not a village bred. But that's what I am trying to be now. Actually, it all started with the previous experiment of Gaddige, where I really felt that living close to nature, in natural rhythm can actually be quite amazing and provide depth to life. It also solves lot of issues like health, overweight, environment carbon foot print etc..
I also learnt that planting more trees is quite a positive act not only for me but also for nature and environment. Things are not easy. I do not yet have a decent place to stay, i plan to stay in a small tent for sometime. My uncle uses lot of pesticides and fertilizers. My family is quite bewildered with my eccentricities. Local villagers are puzzled and making stories. Overall, its fun and exciting.
However,I often remind myself - why am I here and what am I doing ? I am here because i wanted a life of fulfillment for myself and help to society. It's so easy to get lost in everyday buzz that we loose sight of higher, original vision.
I am living on my Dad's money as of now. (sometimes i also wonder whether this obsession with living on one's own is really because of individuality or because of arrogance an unwillingness to share) and I want to start earning money soon. Selling farm produce, opening a coaching centre are some ideas on my mind but I am taking it slow.
Sustainability becomes an obsession at times. I find myself become quite difficult to myself and to others due to my new value system which is in line with prevalent ideas of our times - sustainability, natural farming, eco friendly living, low impact etc.. While I realize the importance of all this but it is hard to remember always that all these are means to something not an end in itself.
I need to find who am I, why am I here and how should I live ! While I think i am on right path, the guiding light is quite dim. I caught myself being diverted and lost quite often.
Sometimes I feel that I've invited a lot challenges in my life for not enough good reasons. Sometimes I feel the urge to be more actively involved in social upbringing. Sometimes I feel urge to go back to my old routines and life style.
I can see that journey is on, there are many more milestones to meet. I must remind myself to keep my feets joyous and my eyes focused on the ultimate goal.
I've taken some money from my dad to get started. I needed fencing (as the area is heavily populated with goats, wild boars) and some other things to get started. (like books ! ! ).
Now I am not a farmer, I am not a village bred. But that's what I am trying to be now. Actually, it all started with the previous experiment of Gaddige, where I really felt that living close to nature, in natural rhythm can actually be quite amazing and provide depth to life. It also solves lot of issues like health, overweight, environment carbon foot print etc..
I also learnt that planting more trees is quite a positive act not only for me but also for nature and environment. Things are not easy. I do not yet have a decent place to stay, i plan to stay in a small tent for sometime. My uncle uses lot of pesticides and fertilizers. My family is quite bewildered with my eccentricities. Local villagers are puzzled and making stories. Overall, its fun and exciting.
However,I often remind myself - why am I here and what am I doing ? I am here because i wanted a life of fulfillment for myself and help to society. It's so easy to get lost in everyday buzz that we loose sight of higher, original vision.
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| That's Budhanwada - Dudiya ! 180 KM from Bhopal, 150 from Jabalpur |
I am living on my Dad's money as of now. (sometimes i also wonder whether this obsession with living on one's own is really because of individuality or because of arrogance an unwillingness to share) and I want to start earning money soon. Selling farm produce, opening a coaching centre are some ideas on my mind but I am taking it slow.
Sustainability becomes an obsession at times. I find myself become quite difficult to myself and to others due to my new value system which is in line with prevalent ideas of our times - sustainability, natural farming, eco friendly living, low impact etc.. While I realize the importance of all this but it is hard to remember always that all these are means to something not an end in itself.
I need to find who am I, why am I here and how should I live ! While I think i am on right path, the guiding light is quite dim. I caught myself being diverted and lost quite often.
Sometimes I feel that I've invited a lot challenges in my life for not enough good reasons. Sometimes I feel the urge to be more actively involved in social upbringing. Sometimes I feel urge to go back to my old routines and life style.
I can see that journey is on, there are many more milestones to meet. I must remind myself to keep my feets joyous and my eyes focused on the ultimate goal.
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