I walk on and on

Zen Master Santoka wrote - " I've nothing else to do, I walk on and on. "
That's me too.

I have nothing else to do. Nothing which I am sure of, nothing that I can give me 100% to. Ofcourse I can do so many things, mostly useless. But as always, life still remains so interesting, so beautiful.

With my recent relationship, I have changed a lot. The relationship is over but it has gifted me with precious insights about love, life and relationships. Last 6 months have been like a turmoil, so much happened. I enjoyed it all. I am happy it happened. The stress, the confusions, the mistakes, the thrills, the happiness, the tears. I feel alive. Amidst, all this one thing has become even more certain. I need to walk on and on - that too not on the wrong path. The problem is I don't know the right path.

I don't want to do a job that binds me, that restricts me or that involves stupid outcomes like selling soaps. But I am not sure of any of my skills or interests - what to do ?

I see a ray of hope with Zen Counselling. I want to learn Zen, Zen Counselling and see how Zen can be of use to our daily life and then make it my earning bread. It's gonna be tough, but I want to try as I see it as freedom and doing something I'd like.

But as my mind is like clouds , ever wavering - I am not sure what happens. In fact, I've learnt to live with this uncertainty of my mind. Be it. I want to learn to accept as I am. Confused, wavering, non focussed- whatever. That's me. Perhaps.