We live our lives. We pass our days. We are engrossed in the world around us and we think that's all that exists.
I was the same, I am still the same, but when I attended ISPP program at Pune conducted by CCS. They exposed me to so many things, that I started hating myself. My life suddenly appeared to be so petty.
When they showed the other side of so called Modern India, the slums, the financial struggle at lower strata, the poverty, the lack of freedom in NE.
When I went to Budhwarpeth to talk to sex workers about their problems, I was stunned to see the cruel reality.
The result has been that I am completely mind fucked.
But what further fucks my mind is that - SO WHAT ? NOW WHAT ?
It happens so often that we get touched by a movie, a documentary, an article, a real life misery, a person .... but very soon - it all fades away.
Now that I know that ITPA ( Immoral trafficking protection act of India) is flawed.
Now that I know that life is miserable in most of India.
Now that I know how am I so selfish.
Now what am I gonna do ? Just write this blog in frustration ?
It also throws another question at me - " Why do I feel miserable for misery of others ?" Can't I live my life happily ? Is that bad ?
Is this also a conditioning of society that I am feeling sad for the poor ?
I feel impotent.
I feel so helpless.
Where to begin, what to do ? What not to do ?
The answer lies here and now, I am doing nothing.
I am still googling and learning about useless stuffs about useless things.
That's pathetic me.
3 comments:
There is too much in this world for one person to do. Just stick to what you want to do the most. Thats it.
Bhai..you at least think about it...there are people who give a damm to all this thoughts....it is better you think to do some thing good for the misery you saw...and i am sure you will find some way to help them in one or the other way.......do let me know if can be of any help....i know i am also just talking.....but for every thing intial move is always small.
Badhri - The question is what is that I want to do the most ?
Everything seems so important.
Rohit - thinking about it and not doing is even worse. Agar socha nahi to koi baat nahi...dekh ke..soch ke kuch na karo to bahut guilty hoti hai...
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